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[06 Jul 2009|11:29pm]
did i get my wish =\
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[11 Jun 2009|08:22pm]
as long as I can keep my head, from spinning back
as long as I can keep my focus on a point that lies ahead
as long as I can move along
as long as nothing to disturbing hits me wrong

then I turn around and I do that all the time
going there feels wrong but the past is so much fun
and all memories are sweeter cause there gone
I always want to turn around

there´s a here and now and people to be loved
there are ways to be discovered
there´s a green next to the rough
sometimes I am not affraid to live
and most of all there´s you and what you give

then I turn around and I do that all the time
going there feels wrong but the past is so much fun
and all memories are sweeter cause there gone
I always want to turn around

and I do that all the time
going there feels wrong but the past is so much fun
and all memories are sweeter cause there gone
I always want to turn around

as long as I can keep my head, from spinning back
as long as I can keep my focus on a point that lies ahead




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[09 Jun 2009|03:27am]
my feelings are always going to be in north carolina and florida.
sigh.
goodnight.
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[06 Jun 2009|04:53pm]
im just going to start keeping my business to myself because peoples comments and opinions are really unnecessary. soo im just going to go about my life how i want it. if you ever care to know just ask because im tired of being an open book.
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[01 Jun 2009|05:45pm]
[ mood | empty ]

baby why did you leave me?
why did you have to do?
i was counting on forever, now i'll never know...



he meant so much to me.
rest in peace, DJ


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8khHqMntkbQ



i cant believe this happened.

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[01 Jun 2009|01:28am]
[ mood | worried ]

my really great butterlies and smiles slowly turned into heart racing, sick to my stomach concerns...

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sweetest dreams [29 May 2009|02:15am]
heart racing, palms sweating, butterflies in your stomach..


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[27 May 2009|01:51am]
everything is almost oh, so wonderful
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[22 May 2009|11:25pm]
 for the first time in forever... i couldnt be any happier.


taking everything slow because.. i really dont want to rush anything.

i recieved a card in the mail today but i didnt know about it. so my mom is like "you got mail... i think its from marcus" so of course i'm like oooh shit. so i got and i check and its an un addressed envelope. i open it to find a sweet card, and a $20 gift card to Dunkin lol.
DJ is too sweet for my own good
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[10 May 2009|10:39pm]
im scared more than anything to let my guard down. i cant get hurt again. i cant let it happen.
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i've been doing a lot of thinking... [24 Apr 2009|10:50pm]


and i came to realize that this school year was so much worse than last year.

I lost my boyfriend. thats absolutely over for good..

I lost a best friend. and its been 6 months since we last spoke. and i know i;ve been saying that life moves on but it really does pain me that ivey and i dont speak anymore. our friendship fell apart due to the lack of communication, from both ends. and it kills me to think about it.

but 6 months?! it's insane. and depressing. i wanna talk to her and catch up. i want to mend what was broken. but i worry that it cant be fixed. so do i let things continue as they are? or will one of us have the guts to woman up and apologize?

comments and suggestions are welcome...


idk whats happening in life anymore. i just wish for something wonderful to happen.

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[10 Apr 2009|02:44am]
if by any chance you hear on the news of a girl shooting up students and faculty at bloomfield college.... its just me.
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lol im NOT a stupid girl [06 Apr 2009|04:08pm]
i know very well when there's another girl in the picture, because you dont just come up with excuses and bullshit for no reason.


so marcus has his eye on some UGLY ass chick whose his friends roommate. haha good for him! might as well get someone ugly cause he'll never have anyone as pretty as me.

so yeah im moving on. i deleted him from every bit of my life. and im actually excited and little frightened.. but mostly excited!

im not sorry i wasted the last 8 months waiting for him, it was a lesson i had to learn on my own. and its a mistake that will never again happen.


p.s. dont ever date a redhead, or a jew. or a mix of the two. they are CRAZY!
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[05 Apr 2009|03:05pm]
i got back from DC last night and it was amazing. truely a wonderful trip.



i'll have pictures up later on FB.
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[31 Mar 2009|01:49am]
it could just be the butterflies in my stomach.. or the sense that i want something out of this... but you have me on top of the clouds and i dont even know who you are..
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[30 Mar 2009|12:55pm]
i got really bored so i cut my bangs last night lol.  this are kind of looking up. im kinda at a weird place.. but i'd like to think positively.



DC in 4 days!
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[24 Mar 2009|12:18am]
i've been dressing up alot this week, well kinda. i've been dressing in cute clothes and heals almost everyday. and i really like it. im doing it for me and i feel good about it =]


well idk if anyone really looked at mne and ericas corny video on youtube.. got some good and back feedback. some people found it hilarious and others found it dis-tasteful, in so, saying that i'd never make it as an actress but perhaps a stripper.

thats so heartbreaking, to have someone think of you that way when all you do is have fun in a stupid cheesey way. people seriously cannot take a joke anymore.


and i've also come to realization that i cannot keep a boyfriend unless i'm ugly, ordinary OR a giant slut. i tell ya... i never win.



OH AND THIS TOO:
I'm goin to Washington DC in two weeks! with my school for like $30. im so serious it covers everything; hotel, trip, food, etc. most of my tution chipped in too. but $30?? thats not bad at all! considering i refused to pay $500 for the band trip. haha now its my turn for hella cheaper!!
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[07 Feb 2009|10:01pm]
i get my wish in 5 days.. and im not sure i still want it?
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valentines weekend.. [19 Jan 2009|09:34pm]
so after talking to marcus and my sis about whats going on in NYC thats weekend...


we've decided that we're going to:

The NYC Aquarium
Lion King on Broadway
The Hummus Place
The Museum of Sex
and Rockerfeller Center roortop




more to plan haha 24 days!
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I GOT MY CONCERT TICKETS [16 Jan 2009|03:37pm]
ok... so webster hall tix sold out like hot cakes in 15 minutes... stupid people who sell them on ebay!


so i bought my tickets for the philly show the next day.



im super excited. finally im getting something that i want and i deserve!
life is wonderful <3



27 days til marcus
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